Often, usually when I’m most fed up with my education and the book-learnin’ aspect of getting a doctorate, I feel the longing inside me for a simpler time. I’ve discussed this repeatedly with my supervisor at my office. I often wish that I could just observe her and soak up her knowledge like a sponge. The woman is a genius.

I feel the same about my practicum supervisor. I see how she works with children and how she draws them to her. She has them complete tasks, like a wizard of achievement testing, and I’m in awe. These people are in their element and they are good at what they do. I know why I need to be in school, but I’d much rather watch these people, full-time, and learn from them.

My education is important to me. When I’m not learning something, I grow moody (no comments from the peanut gallery) and I will start grabbing anything I can get my hands on to learn. If I’m out of school for too long, I start feeling worthless. I have things to work on in regards to how I relate my education to my feelings of self.

But I’d rather just watch and learn hands on. I think I’m just being pulled in too many directions this semester, and several of my classmates have expressed the same. Fall break can’t come soon enough.

Maybe I should have been a shoe cobbler?

Edumacation Stats for one blueshelled GQ Southern mom blogger

4 years for a B.S
+1 year I lost in credits switching schools
+2 years for M.S.
+ 4 years for Ph.D
+1 year M.S. practicum
+2 years apprenticeship for M.S. licensure (70% done with this)
+ 1 year, PhD practicum
+1 year Ph.D internship
+2 years apprenticeship for PhD licensure
= not even close to the prestige that an MD gets for roughly the same amount of education.

I’m about to start the PhD practicum process, so you can see exactly where I am in this development. My M.S is in a different subfield of the Subject, so my PhD will not cover the licensure for it. But I think you get my frustration. Yes, my hours may be cushier and I may not have to do rotations, but I am a highly educated woman and I’m going to know a lot about a lot when I come out of this.

I’m just saying.